Saturday, January 4, 2014

One Little Word

For the past week I have been narrowing down the one little word I'd like to focus on for the duration of my thirtieth year on this planet.

This is my thirtieth year, y'all. It has to be a good one.

I thought of several great options {accept, organize, trust, listen} and many blogger friends have published some wonderful inspiration, but I just couldn't boil it down. To be perfectly honest, I have had a hard time nailing anything down lately. Since Nora's glorious arrival into our family and the cold, hard realization that three children is greater than two parents, my head hasn't stopped spinning. Some days I fall into bed with a smile on my face; exhausted, but accomplished. Most days, however, I'm just treading water.

My life is a series of unfinished business and frazzled has become my middle name. Everything I do, I do in a frantic, hurried manner. Even if I'm simply relaxing on the couch, my brain is running a mile a minute and overflowing with worries about what will happen when my feet hit the floor. Yesterday, as I struggled to separate trash from toys from Christmas leftovers, make sure the boys ate something other than chips, and keep Nora in a dry diaper, my brain clicked into gear. I know what I need in my life. I knew it the other day when I highlighted my parenting resolutions for the year.

I need calm.

I need to slow down, push the worries aside, let it all go, and be. I need to walk into my bedroom, close the door, drop to my knees, and pray. I need to run my hands through the grass in my backyard and feel the sun on my face. I need to pick my battles with my children and ease off of mean mommy mode. I need to enjoy my life instead of wishing it all away.

This year I will turn 30 years old. I'm not afraid of that {yet}, because age is just a number. What I am afraid of, though, is entering a new season of my life in a such a stumbling, overwhelming manner. I don't want to fall into this new decade, I want to calmly step in. And I don't want to miss a thing.

For those who don't know, one little word is a project I discovered last year when I noticed several online pals choosing a focal word to use for the course of a year. The idea of coming up with goals to better my life through a simple word was an intriguing challenge, so I jumped on board. Last year my word of choice was grow. It was a perfectly fine choice and I think I did well with it. My body grew to accommodate the growth of my family, which resulted in my heart swelling to greater proportions and my faith growing at the same speed. Success!

I'd like to challenge myself a little further this year, though, so I'm spreading this into a series. You'll come along for the ride, won't you? Instead of just spitting it out in January and thinking about it again 365 days later, I'm going to revisit this topic at the end of each month. I will sit down at my computer and describe how these four letters have affected my life and the lives of those around me. I'm going to force myself to keep this in the back of my mind because frankly, I need it desperately.

What about you? What's your one little word? If you're a blogger, I'd love for you to join my challenge and do your best to keep your word front and center. If you're not, I still challenge you to do the same. Take a few minutes today and think about the one little word you'd like to concentrate on this year. Something that will improve your quality of life. Then come back and share it with me, you hear?

I'm ready for you 2014, let's take a few deep breaths and let's calm down.

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